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After the inter, the spring was pleasantly dry The roads becaain, and in response to Cathy's entreaties, August and I planned a long visit with her as soon as planting was done and Kevin could acco on the rug and other needleithout complaint My mother wrote letters to her acquaintances in Charles Town, expecting to receive invitations to parties where she hoped I ht meet soht, trying to think of a way that I ht see Robbie alone, and to putme say I cared for him, immediately answeredand had only just realized it, that he wanted to marry me

But I must do more than dream Now I made plans If Robbie did not immediately respond the way I wished, I would take action I would seduce him Then he would have no choice but to marry me I would offer myself to him, and he would take me It would be inevitable My love would persuade hi hishis hands on my skin, and my loins ached with the need of him This state was not new to inings progressed beyond kisses, beyond the touching of hands; I iined his hips pressed to ht, and I curledfro that at last I could doRobbie I would make my dream come true

I remembered how I had asked Cathy, after she was e bed was like; I reme, butof Robbie I ree of a field when I was a child; at the time I had paid no more attention than if they had been animals But now, hot and tearful, I remembered how tenderly they had kissed; and I wanted to hurry to make Robbie love me, and be his in fact, for I was almost mad with my desire for him

My opportunity arose a few days after our visit to Brianag At breakfast, a servant delivered a note fro he would come for a visit in the afternoon I breathed a silent prayer of thanks, and found myself unable to eat