Page 41 (1/2)

"Are you here with anyone?" he finally asked as his eyes traveled downthe bar to hold ain "You look like you could use some fresh air Want to step outside with me?"

I looked around and didn’t see Jade The sounds in the roo to overwhelrabbed ht air was chilly, but with all the alcohol war my body I couldn’t feel it

I honestly couldn’t tell you e talked about for most of the time we remained outside He mentioned he worked at an investment firm, but I didn’t catch which one I wondered if he went into it because he wanted to or soh to ask He looked like he caenuinely enjoyed it

"It’s nice out here tonight," Mason observed as I nodded in agreeht?"

"Yep" I considered ood I didn’t come here to talk, but Mason was easy to talk to

"What kind of doctor do you want to be?" he asked I didn’t know hih to tell hitheainst the old black railing I felt better than I had in days thanks to the noise, the alcohol and Mason He didn’t know the pain I was in and the things I had done He talked to me like there wasn’t a care in the world and I felt nor chills through ths of ht into his eyes and before I knew it his lips were on mine

I didn’t kno to react at first My body stiffened and my instinct was to push him away, run until I was back in the comforts of my own dorm room, but the alcohol froze , he wrapped his ar about the way he held and kissed me, relaxed me He ar I had missed out on for weeks was suddenly there It was comfort, warmth and want His hands started to travel upetting chilly out here Do you want to find sorabbed my hand and leadThere armth in my body that hadn’t been there in teeks and whether it was the alcohol or Mason, I didn’t care I couldn’t think straight and I didn’t question him e ended up in his rooain; the sounds of the cityoutside his door

My earlier cals met his bed He kissedon my back with him on top of me I started to tell myself that I needed to do this, s I could never have Dane held my heart; he was my first, my one, my only and I couldn’t have hiet used to it one way or another He lifted my sweater above my head and I let him He placed kisses betweenat the buttons on my jeans All I could do was lay there with o away Dane didn’t do this to me I did this I put s, I felt a tear slide down the side of iven to one person I held ontotio The numbness I felt before I opened h this I needed to forget everything and feel nothing More tears fell as I squeezedI didn’t move I just laid there asof his own clothes He kissed his way back upand if he could feel it, he didn’t say anything His hardness was pressed againstinside I just wanted this to be over with, but I couldn’t move a muscle It was like I was frozen in place I wanted to replace all the aching

With every kiss, I felt Dane’s lips With every touch, I felt Dane’s hands With every second that went by, I felt I was losing a littleleft

He placed one ainst my lips and I instantly froze I couldn’t do this, not now, not with hi that towoken froo! I can’t breathe"

I didn’t open my eyes until I felt his body leave mine and even then it was et out of there He lookedby the bed completely naked Hands wrapped around the back of his neck "Jesus, what did I do?"

"I’ at this point, trying to get dressed as sobs shook ive this to soive it to someone when someone else still had ain as I ran out the door, tears still strea downbut I couldn’t I needed to go As I rounded the corner to the living area, I saw him My heart fell out of ht now I needed to get out of here and go somewhere to be alone Just as I started to walk toward the door, his eyes went to my face then shot behindco his way over to ry that I walked backward until I was pressed against the wall I needed so to hold me up; my knees eak and I wanted to be anywhere but here