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"This family," she said without a beat "It's always been"

She said goodbye andas she went down the corridor and out the door

That night I wrote my two hardest letters, one to Roy and one tothe as a result I followed Doctor Snyder's advice and filled ic accident sound like a little fall

"For a while," I concluded in both letters "I want to re my therapy Some day in the near future, I'll reconsider land"

I told them both not to worry about me and I promised them both I would stay in touch

I had the hardest ti the letters had stimulated happier memories My father had filledforward to seeing hi part of his fa in my whole life Now that seemed impossible,

I thought about how terrible Roy was going to feel and hoould so ine I was afraid he et himself in trouble and I had warned hi that would make me feel worse I hoped he would listen, but I kne headstrong he could be

Everyone caht I sawwith Ma walks with Randall Glenn in London, our touring of the city and our strolls along the Tha How terrible it is to lose soht

Before long my pilloas soaked with my tears and I had to turn it over to try to sleep on it I didn't fall asleep until alood in my therapy sessions Doctor Synder came to see me t

o talk about it

"I' about yourself," she said, which surprised me "Hate yourself for what and who you think you are and that will give you e and become the woman I expect you to become"

She reached out and seizedthem around so I had to look at myself in the mirror

"Go on, stare at that girl Is that who you are Rain?"

"I don't knoho that is," I said

"Exactly Drive away this stranger who has taken over your body Drive her out through your therapy and your deterain"