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monotonously as I waited for the skies to clear and events to work themselves out It was hard What do you do with yourself, with time when you have it in super abundance? What direction should your thoughts take when daydreams could lead you into so much sad territory?

I tried to occupyto an to dry A day later I heard fro Grant edy back to a productive life When I asked her about ed,

"We're deciding how to handle that I don't know if private therapy will be enough and neither does Grant," she told me with an ominous undertone

What new plot was she hatching? Should I care?

She told me she would be by in two days with the paperwork she had promised earlier I didn't tell her that I had come to a decision she would like very ive them all what they had wanted I told Jake I shouldn't have been so stubborn about it I should have accepted the coland Brody would still be alive

He hated that talk and told ain Finally, he stopped arguing about it Instead, he talkedRain for a ride, now that the weather permitted it I could set clearly what he hoped would happen and I didn't deny that I hoped itme some peace and contentment

The rides were practically the only thing I looked forward to doing Rain became more and more comfortable with me and I started to believe in Jake's descriptions of the horse anxiously anticipating ht see that really see her was the best way to escape from my dark depression

'Every time we reached the crest of that hill Rain would expect rass and I would sit on a rock and look out at the land Grandmother Hudson's house, and the beautiful horizon I would tellwhere I had co up I should feel lucky I should cherish all this and fight hard not to lose it, but the wall of tragedy was too tall and too wide and too heavy

It's just notit

As she had promised Aunt Victoria ca nual docuook of business information that clouded my tired and confused brain Maybe I was ined Maybe, like her I just wanted so practical

In the middle of her endless stream of financial infor to surrender

"I don't care about all that," I said "I want to go back to England as soon as possible You were right,"

She stared at me a o ahead and sell the property?"

"Do whatever has to be done" I said