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Noticing the way he gazed at me made me wonder if I had had a boyfriend before my accident I knerence would be disappointed, but that wasn't what keptelse But what? Why did my heart start to pound just at the idea?

Suddenly Mary Beth got up and ca to her and what she said made her look unhappy

"Denise says she overheard Billy and another attendant talking about Megan She says they said Megan'sher transferred to a real nuthouse From the way they described it, it doesn't sound nice They called her a straitjacket case" She looked back "Lulu's very upset She heardher thumb I don't knohat to do I don't want her to end up in the Tower, too"

"Poor kid," Lawrence said "And poor Megan" "When does she stop being a victim?" I asked aloud

Lawrence fixed his eyes on htfully for a moment "When she wants to," he said

"You think she wants to be like she is?" Mary Beth asked hirily

"I've been doing a lot of reading lately about soan feels responsible for what happened to her She blames herself and she looks for sympathy It's all she kno to do at the ot to make her see what happened to her was not her fault"

"Maybe you're talking about yourself," Mary Beth snapped, her eyes furious

He gazed up at her

"Maybe," he ad about all of us"

I shuddered and looked around at all the other patients Soaze at us ht not easily understand how troubled most of us were For the moment, everyone looked as nor television and laughing, talking, and reading

It struck me how difficult it was to know about so at them Maybe it took years and years before anyone really knew anyone Lawrence was growing more and more attached to me, but what if all that I remembered would devastate him? What if I were exactly like the people he despised? Wouldback over me and wipe away any identity I had established with hiers, a pair of lost souls who happened to meet for a while and soon had to return to our bodies, and those bodies ht

"I feel like going outside," I said and stood up

Mary Beth and Lawrence looked at each other and then smiled