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I figured that going to the club for a little bit couldn't be ed uy I'd been paired up with—Harry or Jerry or so if he could touch theht of that creep made me shudder even still

“Yay!” she exclai you”

Lila quickly started digging through s on the bed until she pulled out a dress, one I'd brought a long tio because she'd talked me into it It was a slinky black number with a lower neckline than I was used to or comfortable with, which explained why I'd never worn it She threw it atme little choice in the manner

Lila also didaway excitedly the whole time After she was done with me, I'd wiped most of the makeup off in the bathroo like ood

My auburn hair fell in soft waves overme what I called “Cosmo hair” because it was bouncy and had body to it, just like the azines Lila loved to read My lips were a nice, rich shade of red, which paired nicely without the blue in eyes with thick, long lashes that made them seem to pop

“Beautiful! When Gavin sees you, he's going to want to bang your pretty little brains out,” Lila said

Her phrasinga roller coaster, but I had to adood Not that I expected to losejust because ent to the club As I looked in the ht about the entire purpose of cruises like this—I started to have doubts I had to fight off a wave of nausea that rose up from deep within me

“I'm not sure…”

Lila stoppedoff my words with a wave of her hand She took my hands in hers and looked deeply into my eyes

“You're allowed to have fun, Josie You're allowed to enjoy yourself And yes, that includes having so sex,” she said “There's nothing wrong with a wo that you'd really, really enjoy it with Gavin That man just looks like he kno to fuck and fuck well”

I knew she was right, and I wanted to be intimate with men I wanted a relationship and a fa ot even remotely close, I ran away And God knew, if push came to shove, I'd probably find a way to run from Gavin too

I was also battling nant spirit All my doubts about myself and the fact that I had no sexual experience h there was a set experience and tried to counsel that even if I sucked in bed, it was a learning experience and I'd never see hiain anyway

“I believe in you, baby doll,” Lila said, s et you laid”

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Hedonistic Heaven was dark inside, so dark it took a h, it wasn't what I'd expected And it wasn't nearly as scary as I thought I guess I'd been expecting so, but that turned out to not be the case