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Damn his weakness

He’d come to set her free, but he ached inside Ached fro he really did have MS Ached that in the blink of an eye he could lose his license to practice medicine, his license to fly a plane, his ability to be a ht to have this woman’s love

He ached for the loss of hope He’d never be free to accept Liz’s love, never be able to offer her a future, to give her a happily-ever-after

Perhaps on this day when he’d first learned of the definite diagnosis of his disease, he was self-pitying Perhaps in the ray But at the moment he mourned the loss of his health, his hopes for the future, his right to a life with Liz

He hadn’t lied to her when he’d said he needed her He did need her He needed the healing only her touch provided Needed to feel her ar she loved hiure out hoas going to face the future A future that loomed bleakly ahead like a black

hole greedily consuood

Even if just for one ht, he’d wanted to hold Liz, to be inside her, to feel her pleasure around hi within, and know that for the tiood

Yes, he eak

Yes, it rong

But he faced an eternity of hellish loneliness

Just the last feeeks’ taste of not being with Liz scraped his insides raw He’d gotten so accustohter and sadness and even the quiet

This very , held his last taste of her sweetness, his last caress of her body, his last everything

Although it would be all too easy to find hi his diseased body, he wouldn’t allow the self-pity to take over his mind, to cause hiood, focus on Liz, and the blessing she’d been in his life

Making love to Liz was for hiuilty

Sure, she’d looked content when she’d dozed off snuggled in his arms Even now, in her sleep a satisfied smile played on her lips