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That’s not what this is This is the desperation of a ht he could deceive and win

I pull back oncewhatever distance I can between us, and then say, “Let o, Rad”

His grasp tightens, but Itogether, and our relationship—all at once “I’hkeepsie”

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My soul drove away in a stranger’s blue sedan

And I stood there and let it happen Why’d I let her go?

Why didn’t I fight harder to get her to stay?

The answer is siainst

My life has been built around having the better arguirlfriend into having a five-h tie she thinks I’ve done?

My head throbs fro Tealey here with ined It’s worsened by the fact that I don’t knoent wrong

Does she not understand how I feel about her? How could she not? I did everything to earn her trust bythe way, but I knew she saw

I was happily changing one anyway

Why?

The sun is rising like this is any other ordinary day It’s not It’s the first day that I’ht My day starts and ends because she’s a part of theet back home to her

I push the glass across the island, letting it crash into the empty bottle

Fuck feelings

I can say it like a e the fact that I don’t believe it I stood firmly behind that motto until I met Tealey Until I fell in love with her

With her gone, I feel empty, like the bottle of bourbon

What happened?

Jean-Luc?

Marlow?

The wedding?