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With last night’s darkness behindthe horizon

The sun’s co up, but it’s a cruel joke now that they’ve made the decision to separate the two of us I’ve spent the last three weeks of o back to her Now I’ on autopilot back to athe road

It’s not the first ti forced into the past It feels as though I’ forced into another horrific incident that would keep ht

Blinking away theto the rearview and I spot Da thickly, I reo back It’s not possible and even if I could, I

There are things we can control and things we can’t The horrible losses we suffer—at times—come from our own actions

Last night, I slept with Ella Thoughts of last night flash beforeher soft ainst the rules It was against everything we stand for at The Firm

I lost control

So about her makes me want to lose control It makes me need to lose control I want to lose myself in her and co sardonically, I breathe out heavily and ht as ht It’s all another cruel joke from the asshole that is the universe I’et away fro Both of the up with one another

A sickness pulls the corners of et A past that made me this weakened version of myself

Bang! There’s a loud knock at , bang Another three in a row

“You want me to open it?” Damon’s eyes hid the worry he felt as equally as the exhaustion We’d been up all night ateverywhere and calling everyone

“Mr Thompson, it’s the police” The deep voice echoes in my mind in a way I know I’ll always remember

The leather sofa groans as Daet it,” he tellsrunning rah me The cops don’t show up at anyone’s apart terrible has happened

It hadn’t been twenty-four hours, so I couldn’tpersons report The second I heard that knock and the officer’s voice, I knew there would be no report I knew there would be no search I knew that much, and still, I didn’t want it to be real

My throat’s dry as I turn down the street I’ve taken for the last three weeks with nothing but anticipation to see Ella My distraction,that’s hard to place So I don’t dare look into, for fear of the depths of its

I didn’t hear a dao I was too focused on how numb I felt and how it couldn’t be real How h the rest of uilt hit, it hit like a sledgeha they’d said He was the one who toldAbout her murder About what happened to Quincy