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A Fucking Year
All my resolutions that I made to myself in the shower are now tossed out theMy heart, having only felt dented the night before, is now suddenly shattered He keeps so much from me I don’t even know him anymore
Do I even want to know him now? Can I trust him?
I’m not sure if I even wanted to try
Up in rab my keys I never could take emotional pain well It hurts like no physical pain ever could, and that just pisses ry at everyone I know
My brothers have known about the kid—and sure I understand about the to let Bash tellwith another fe knew and they didn’t say a word! I’ve been stupid enough to let him worm his way back into my life, maybe even my bed
It’s obvious where their loyalties stand and it’s not with me The club is their life, their first priority Bash is their new president, their leader Their boss s don’tman
I can’t honestly res have , plead, or cry As long as I’m safe, and no one touches ed Jet not to hurt Bash
I can’t stay here I can’t be under the saer They may love me, but they don’t care about , those are my brothers
I only have three people I can choose froe with Uncle Jack won’t understand He loves me just as much as my brothers do, maybe even more, but he’s all club Felicity loves me, cares about me, but I can’t really handle her mom She’s loyal to the club in every way and would definitely take sides if it comes down to it
That only leaves one place
I run down the stairs and out to my car before anyone can stoptheer even as I tossquickly, I punch the gas as soon as I’m out of the driveway
It’s a twenty minute drive and otten five minutes away I turn it off, half-tempted to toss the cellphone out theBy the ti lot of the old, rundown apart, my nerves are shot and a few defiant tears spill free
Grabbingthe steps to the second floor It had once been a hotel, and is now apartments, at least the second floor is I’m not blind to the fact that the first floor is a pay by the hour whore house
My fingers shake as I step in front of the door at the end A few more tears spill over, and I don’t even bother to brush them away as I knock twice