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“Matt, please,” she says

“Condom?” I ask She points to her bedside table, and I reach for it I really don’t want to leave her because she feels so fking good I can barely stand it

“We need one?” she asks I sit up on ht of day, all exposed and pink and so fking perfect

“It would take a nant,” I say But I do need it because if there’s no barrier between et inside her So I roll it down h for her

She giggles “Because I want all the children in the whole orld Every last one My three are definitely not enough”

My heart stalls I fall down beside her instead of on top of her She rolls toward me

“What’s wrong?” she asks

“Don’t joke about that,” I say “If you want ive you any” My heart’s beating like I just ran a lass vase I broke when I was six There were pieces of it everywhere I worry for her health if that happens She’ll get stabbed Oh fk I throw my arm over my eyes

Sky clihs bracketingof hair on my chest “I’m sorry I ruined it,” she says quietly She lays her face on ht little body on me fully She’s war a tear from her eye

Shit I fked it all up “I didn’t mean to make you cry,” I say quietly

“I’ for me, you dummy,” she says She smacks my hands ahen I try to wipe her tears

“Then why the fk are you crying?” I ask

“I was crying for you,” she whispers

Shit She can undo me so easily “Because I can’t have kids?”

She snorts “Because you want kids” She grins “I just happen to have three, Matt I can share them with you, if you’ll let me”

Well, I’d planned to do that anyway She wiggles on top ofup into her

“You ever going to shohat that piercing can do? You said it’s ht?”

I take her hips in ht where I want her “Sit up a little bit so I can get to stuff,” I say