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Yet far fro comfort in this addition to her fa more than a trouble and an incumbrance; with no inherent resources, she was continually in search of occasional supplies; she fatigued Cecilia onder at the privacy of her life, and tormented her with proposals of parties and entertaine, she had wishes so confined, and was evidently disappointed that upon co to so ample an estate, she lived, with respect to herself and her fanificence or shew than if Heiress to only รบ500 a year
But Cecilia was deterard to un wonder or selfish remonstrances; she had neither ambition for splendour, nor spirits for dissipation; the recent sorrow of her heart had deadened it for the present to all personal taste of happiness, and her only chance for regaining it, see it upon others She had seen, too, by Mr Harrel, horetchedly external brilliancy could cover inoe, and she had learned at Delvile Castle to grow sick of parade and grandeur Her equipage, therefore, ithout glare, though not without elegance, her table was plain, though hospitably plentiful, her servants were for use, though too numerous to be for labour The system of her oeconomy, like that of her liberality, was forht, and not by coentry in her neighbourhood
But though thus deviating in her actions fro and rich, she was peculiarly careful not to offend theularity of manners When she mixed with theh she saw the kept them always her friends The plan she had early formed at Mrs Harrel's she now studied daily to put in practice; but that part by which the useless or frivolous were to be excluded her house, she found could only be supported by driving from her half her acquaintance
Another part, also, of that project she found still less easy of adoption, which was solacing herself with the society of the wise, good, and intelligent Feered this description, and those feith difficulty attainable Many , but no one had idly waited till the moment it was at her disposal All who possessed at once both talents and wealth, were so generally courted they were rarely to be procured; and all who to talents alone owed their consequence, de, time and delicacy to be obtained Fortune she kneever, was so often at ith Nature, that she doubted not shortly ladly avail themselves of her offered protection