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I start thinking about what it is that draws ht be as broken as I am

I sit down, careful not to wake her, and place a feather-light kiss on her forehead "I’ainst all hopes that somehow she will hear me and feel how sorry I am I don’t want to be the reason she breaks any further I don’t want to be the reason her eyes are puffy and her cheeks are red

I want to fix her

Because deep down I know she’s going to fix me

Chapter 10

~ Huntley ~

I hear Grayson leave the roo me on the forehead I’ve been awake but decided to keepto talk to hiht when he whispered "I’irl" I don’t want him to blame himself for the state they found me in but that means I’d have to open up about my past and I’m not quite ready for that yet I don’t know if I ever will be

When the pain killers Deht my bodies need for rest I fall into a deep sleep only to be assaulted by a haunting e house is e immediately feels off because there’s always a party here on a Friday night In the three years I’ve been with Jake he’s never skipped throwing a party unless his parents were home, which wasn’t often Their business always kept the periods of time and I’m certain that’s why Jake is the way he is

I’ht isn’t helping withover there he confirnant It’s Jakes’ I know that because he’s the only guy I’ve slept with but I don’t kno he’s going to react I never kno he’s going to react to anything these days and I’s and alcohol His parents have been home less and less and that’sJake to walk in but he doesn’t It’s too quiet I put my hand on my stomach and allow myself to think about my baby Our baby I wonder if he will have his daddy’s dirty blonde hair and brown eyes, or if she will have my blonde hair and blue eyes I haven’t decided what to do yet, I wanted to tell Jake first so that we could decide together Aborting is not an option but I would consider adoption I’h I know ive up his party boy lifestyle and he definitely won’t want to be saddled with a kid now

I walk up his staircase, deciding to check his roo and as I walk in I see him and my best friend Taylor on his bed They’re both naked and he’s on top of her, her legs wrapped around his waist as he thrusts into her Their moans muffle the sound of ht get sick I gasp, covering my mouth as the tears build ineyes with me

"Oh fuck," she says Jake stops and looks back His eyes go hen he sees ets me to move I spin in the doorway and run towards the stairs "Huntley wait!" Jake yells As I make it to the top of the stairs his hand wraps aroundmyself to look at hie of the itself in my head repeatedly "Huntley I’m –"

"Shut up Jake! Just shut up!" I yell, interrupting whatever pathetic excuse he was prepared to give htens "You weren’t supposed to be here," he growls What the fuck? Anger teot nerve, I’ll give him that My head snaps up and I look at his flushed, sweaty face through tear-filled eyes "I canant you asshole!"

His face pales and then contorts in anger "You cheating whore!" he yells His ar a popping sound Pain shoots throughand I stu around me is a blur and it feels like every part of me is on fire I curl up at the botto my arm over my stomach protectively It hurts It takes seconds to realize what’s going on but when I co at Jake "What the fuck Jake? You pushed her down the stairs?" She runs down but Jake gets to me first His bare foot makes contact withthis? I know he’s aggressive but he’s never lifted his hands toain I want to die it hurts soabout?"

My eyes are closed but I can tell he’s looking at nant! There’s no way that baby’sfor enough strength to get myself andif there’s even still a baby to care about "It’s yours," I choke out Between crying and the pain I’ coherently "Only you," I choke out again, feeling the tears slide downhe’s the father, he clearly doesn’t believe !" I hear Taylor shout I don’t need to openfrom I can feel it and it makes me cry harder

I feel hands on oes black…

I wake up in a cold sweat, tears strea down my face and I clutch at ht are still so fresh, even after seeing a therapist to help cope with my ‘loss’ as they called it

A sob escapesthat the pain I feel would just go away

A fewmuscular arms envelope me I don’t need to look up to know it’s hiive hiht now I just don’t have it in et it, even if it’s teirl" His hand st all the otherhim here with his arit with o I cry for the baby I didn’t have the chance to love and then lost I cry for everything I left behind and I cry for the girl I used to be

When my body can’t take anyet about how this will coet about how I’ve allowed et about horong this should feel

I allo right it feels to be here eclipse howand how broken I feel