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"We all know that wasn’t an accident!"

"So you’re calling us liars?" Dad roars

"Yes!" I ju through my body They stare at me like I’ve lost in with "I want the truth!"

"Say it, Razor!" Dad points at me "Look me in the face and tell me you think one of us, one of your brothers, killed yourthe table It shuts Dad up and that’s when I notice it--Dad and I are angled toward each other, pri hard in hurried breaths The solid table the barrier that’s preventing us fro to blows

"Sit down!" Cyrus demands

Dad does, but I remain on my feet "I want the truth!"

"We told you it was an accident!" Dad yells

"And you’re full of shit!"

Cyrus beats the gavel against the table again and one by one the ive me the same damn look of sympathy everyone in town does and it’s like soed rocks Even now no one will tell ht," I continue, not giving a fuck I’m in violation of a direct order

"Razor," warns Cyrus, but I ignore hi to leave you He said you notified the police of a problem with her way before you should have known there was one"

"Thoer voice, but even the use of iven name doesn’t stop the flood

"He said you were the first to find her If what you’ve given me is the truth, then why the hell didn’t I know any of that? All of it sounds like lies to h It will never be enough until I get the truth I’ I’ anyone to tell me what I already know--that my mother committed suicide

Because if someone tells the truth, maybe I can find a way to not be so screwed up

But I don’t get an answer Dad edges back his chair, stalks across the room and then throws open the door with so s off the wall My insides hollow out as I realize no matter what I do, no ray, haunted realm of the unknown for the rest of my life