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"If Austin had tried coive him another chance?"

My mom scoffed "Of course not But he didn’t love you the way you deserve to be loved, and he did not love Parker Coen claiht, and without realizing it, the day Parker was rushed to the ER Even e mentioned it to him, he still didn’t catch it for a few seconds That is why I know he deserves another chance"

I sat there in shock for a few moments before I was able to compose myself And just when I started to ask hchild It is notas he played on the floor--­co around him--­I shook my head sadly as a few tears slipped down my cheeks "You must’ve been mistaken"

Coen--­November 10, 2010

IT’D BEEN ALMOST a week and a half since I’d walked out of Reagan’s aparth I still called at least twelve ti to ht because Hudson had to be at work again on Monday, and even with trying to catch Reagan at her apart she worked in, parked next to her car, and aiting for her to walk outside at any moment

The second she walked outside I stepped out of lossed overa double take, and she froze on the ain, and I watched as her chest started rising and falling roughly

I knew she needed to get to her car She needed to go get Parker from school, so she couldn’t just avoid me, and it was clear in her eyes She wanted to run, but she knew she couldn’t

Walking to where she still hadn’t moved from, I stopped in front of her and looked into her lifeless eyes "Please talk tome for over a week, and there’s so much I need to say"

She didn’t respond Her face had no eto say what I said, I rong to try toout and--­" I cut off when she quickly tried to walk around an, please! I’ot scared for a split second, that doesn’t mean you should just shut me out"

She turned on er, I saw pity in her eyes "Me shut you out? You ran froo of her to run oddaan I love Parker Don’t take the two of you fro down on her botto back around "You did that all by yourself"

"Reagan, I a you not to do this Just talk to me about what happened, letlike you don’t care"

"It’s not that I don’t care, I’

"I thought ere done with that bullshit I thought ere done with you pushing me away because you’re scared of what could happen in the future"

She didn’t stop walking, and she didn’t look back at ht," she said, and suddenly whirled on me "We are done with all that bullshit We were done with it the day you told me you couldn’t proht about that too, Coen" Straightening her back, she hardened her hazel eyes at me "You couldn’t promise me a forever anyus away fro ran, Coen You already ran, and now you’re regretting it because you lost the one thing that could silence your deid and h, and that look of pity deepened "I don’t knohy it tookyou are--­and so blinded by the bullshit you fed ht so hard for us It wasn’t because you loved Parker It wasn’t because you loved me It was because I chased ahat you can’t escape in here," she said, and touched ers "It was because I was a et about all that for a little while"

"That’s bullshit"

"You toldsaid, Ray! And it’s true--­you do silence theht for us You co near you can do toloved you I’ve always loved you I want to ally be his dad, I want to give you as much of a forever as I have"

She shook her head sadly and stepped away froain You’re an artist, Coen, through and through What you see of the world through your camera, and the words that co it any you use us so you can have a few moments of peace from your fked-­up mind"