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"Yeah" He lowered his eyes and sed hard "You regret it I know you do, and… I did this to you"
"Jack, no," I shookhi to co you didn’t understand because it hat I wanted, and you can’t take it back"
"I don’t want to take it back," I insisted, but I wasn’t sure of that anymore
"Cohting soabout, it all boils down to the fact that you don’t want to change You don’t want to be this thing that drinks blood I made you into a monster"
"No, Jack! You did not! I’ to think of what I ave me forever with you I want to be with you I love you"
"I know you do That’s what makes this soin his eyes, and I gaped at hi with you," I told hi this to you"
Lying there naked, as close as two people could be, I had never felt such distance between us The probleht While I loved hi as I was alive, I didn’t want to be a vampire I didn’t want to be a monster that hunted and hurt people, that lived an endless life without purpose, wandering the earth without ever contributing anything
But I didn’t blame him for that I had made a choice, and even if I’d rushed into it, that had been uilt, so I leaned into hirier and o away, I wanted him to feel how much I loved him, how desperately I needed him, and how I never, ever wanted to live without hiers in his back, pressing hied with soret held it back, and even when he kissed me, the closeness I desired escaped us
Afterwards, Jack held h I kneasn’t
I couldn’t sleep, and I felt too restless to even pretend I got up, took a shower, and got dressed In the bedroom next door to mine, both Milo and Bobby were sound asleep, and I hated theet up for school, and Bobby had apparently beaten his insoht I would eat Drinking blood didn’t knock me out the way it did before In fact, other than when I drank fresh blood, like when I bit Jack, the blood had been energizing ht now, but rue that I realized it had been over a week and a half since I ate last And I was barely even hungry
Feeling rather stunned by this realization, I thought about ignoringin e door without getting a bag of blood and got the phone