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"About all you’re giving up"

"Giving up?"

"Castles and carriages The fairy tale your sister has I’ll never be able to give you that--you’ll be settling for less It’s important that you understand that now, not five years down the road when you resent me for it"

I stare at the wall, because if I look at his face, I’ll cry And I want to be strong Angry I’ve never been any good at angry, but I give it an Is that who you think I am? Is that what you think is iles Prepare It’s easier for you Being related to the royal fa; no one looks down on you for it"

"It could be a good thing for both of us"

His face tightens, anger pierces the soulful eyes that I love so much

"I make my oay I look out for myself and everyone around me; I always have To think people will look attho’s using you, makes me sick Makes me want to kill someone--I can’t stand it"

The vehean’s only ever spoken to ustwellit fucking hurts

"Were you even going to show up tonight? Or call? Or were you planning to leavewithout a word?"

Unbearable silence follows an"

He stares at the bottle on the table "I’ dressed and looked at myself in the mirror and justcouldn’t" He exhales "I need tio froether," I try

But he says nothing And it feels likein

Because he needs "time" And we all knohat thatup with htest pause--and in that half-a-second

Then Logan throws ets up fro a bit, and moves closer to me "No, I’m not I just--"

I re sensation of not being wanted The echo of that rejection seeps into my bones and makes my insides curdle I remember how it feels to love someone ishes he didn’t have to look at you, or talk to you

It feels just like this

"Okay, Bato"

"That’s not--"

But I’ for the door

When I pull it open, he’s there behindit closed

"That’s not what this is" I feel his other hand on ainstand sorry "You are everything aI want This is on me I justI have to work it out in my head"

I nod sharply "Yeah, so you said You let ain, but it doesn’t budge Because he’s so fucking strong and it pisses me off too

"Ellie, I’o if I want" My voice rises "You don’t get to keep me here just because you can!"