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And then because I was already waiting at the top of the ed and pulled ain This tiers stayed on the outside and he ti on ainstbetween fast and slow It didn’t takeand it didn’t taketo come explosively; so explosively that my body shuddered on the bed as I whimpered and yet, he didn’t stop His lips never left ed and it was only after a whistle blew that he pulled away from me I lay there completely spent, completely confused and co ho Then I felt so dazed and confused

"You’re done" I heard the voice, but didn’t see him My mind was still on the decision I had to make I had to decide as the best lover; as the one that had turned me on the most and that person would be the winner I was terrified that I’ddecision There was no doubt in my mind that man number 2 had been the one to drive me crazy He’d be the one I’d have dreams about The exquisite pleasure I had felt, even while experiencing pain had been completely new to me It was as if he’d wanted to torood he was He hadn’t felt like Xavier He’d felt naughty, dangerous, exciting, forbidden and I felt guilty as hell I didn’t knoho I was going to choose I didn’t knoas going to choose I jumped off of the bed and walked to the doorway and exited the room I looked around and there as no one else in there withon? I stood there and a blind went up and I could see into the roohts becaain, completely naked She lay down on the bed and placed the blindfold across her eyes I tried to look away frohtly jealous However, I didn’t have time to dwell on my own insecurities because within a uar: regal, dignified, confident and self-assured He oozed power and sex appeal He was an alpha, ready and willing to take control and go with it I gasped as I watched his hands falling to her breasts,them to his palms as he played with her breasts and then it was as if he kneas looking He turned around and looked directly into ht nipple in his asped and stepped back as I kneithout a doubt that it had been Stephan that had brought asm of my life I was ashamed of myself Ashamed and scared I didn’t kno to think and feel All of a sudden one All of a sudden I was filled with a fear and anger that I didn’t recognize I had let another man touch me intimately and I had enjoyed it I’d enjoyed him more than I’d enjoyed the man I loved I felt like I had betrayed Xavier And then I felt mad Mad that he’d put ht was going to happen? What had he expected me to do? He’d put me in this position How could he put me in this position? How could he be okay with otherme to climax? How could he love me and allow this to happen? It didn’t , it made me incredibly sad for myself I couldn’t stand and watch Stephan, either What sort of sick fucks were these guys? What sort of world was this? Why was I here? I was just a siirl from Palm Bay, Florida I was a bloody Pirate, for heaven’s sake I spent my weekends at Melbourne Mall and Indialantic Beach I went to Orlando for fun Chili’s and Applebee’s were good restaurants in uys whose idea of fun was to takethe gah it had bored me But I’d wanted more I’d wanted an adventure I’d drea and exciteo back to the days where Anna and I would drive up to Cocoa Beach and hang out at Ron Jon’s Surf Shop and pretend ere surfers so we could flirt with all the hot guys in the store I wanted to go back to the days when my only concern hether or not ht with a boy who’d already graduated froht now seemed too dark for me Too scary Too wanton and loose I wasn’t sure I could even understand what had just happened I had willingly lain on a bed in a blindfold and alloo different men to pleasureasm No, we hadn’t had sex And no, there had been no penetration, but I wasn’t even sure if that mattered Not when deep inside, a part ofinthat made me question exactly who I was

"Okay, it’s time for everyone to make their decisions" The deep hts I wasn’t sure howanymore I looked around and saw that I was back in the ht jolt of surprise shook ht that I hadn’t even realized that I’d been walking andand I wondered if he had even noticed that I was out of it Violeta was standing to the right ofsmile on her face, and I wondered how she could be so confident and self-assured How did she not feel like a slut? I didn’t understand it Everything about this world was so different, so alluring and dangerous I just didn’t understand how she was okay with all of this I was starting to feel sick toat me, but I didn’t look back at him I didn’t want to see as in his eyes and I didn’t want hi to choose I wasn’t sure which man had been him And I couldn’t honestly say that both reatly Yes, man two had takenwith the pleasure had driven me crazy In my heart of hearts, I knew that man tas the one who had taken et But now that I was almost positive that man tas Stephan, it made me feel sick inside Sick and twisted I could still feel his teeth tugging onme his I could still feel the way he’d sucked so hard that pleasure and pain had been cascading through et off And then I also knehat bothered h with all of this because a part of me had wanted to see what Stephan would be like I’d wanted to hurt Xavier, but I’d also been curious Curious to knohat lay behind his blue eyes Curious to feel and touch him And curious to be touched by hiht He’d bewitched me and now he’d taken a part of me Stephan made me realize that I was just as bad as Violeta Who was I to judge her while I was allowing the sa to happen to me?