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I left Dane’s t-shirt on and pulled on a pair of cotton shorts Slowly sliding under the covers, I finally let go I cried becauseback in his apartment in a million pieces I cried because I realized that I would never love like this again Dane had et it back I cried because I had happiness in my hand and threw it away I cried until there were no more tears left to fall down ulfed , Iat the door I didn’t have to look to see who it was Instead I pulled the covers tightly over oddaht Now" I kneould be upset, but I hadn’t prepared myself for what I would do when he ca to leave here without an explanation and I owed hiive it to him

"Alex, Baby, please just tell me what I did" His voice was so pained My poor, sweet Dane I didn’t want hi, but I couldn’t will any words out of my mouth Every minute I looked at his sad expression and heard the pain in his voice felt like another nail tountil you talk to me," he said, his voice a little lower It was quiet for a while before I heard hi contact with the wall outside o out there and tell hi would be okay, but I kneouldn’t My life was stuck in a coo I felt so hopeless: I knew exactly what I wanted, but I couldn’t have it

It had been quiet for along time when I heard Jade’s voice outside the door "What are you doing down there?" I hadn’t planned on Jade co her, but noas too late I heard Dane’s voice, but couldn’t make out his words as Jade turned her key in the lock

Jade walked in as Dane practically shoved her out of the way,his way tothe covers from my face His eyes were puffy and bloodshot I closed uilt "Why wouldn’t you answer the door? Why did you shut me out? What did I do?" He kneeled beside the bed and cupped my cheeks in his hands "Alex, talk tonote and expect me stay away" I opened my eyes to , please"

"Dane, you need to go" My voice was shaky as tears rolled downanywhere until you talk to er I heard in his voice brokeas I lived, I would see that pained expression every time I closed my eyes How could I hurt the man that I loved? Was I really any better than theing If my family members could do this, so could I It was time to step back from my heart and detach myself completely My whole body treoing to work

I would never knohere what came out of my mouth next came from I took a deep breath and squared my shoulders "I can’t be with you, Dane I can’t love you the way you need to be loved; I thought I could but I can’t," I said Each wordeverything out of ether as his forehead wrinkled "What? I don’t believe one fking word you’re saying to ain Had he been crying? "What the fk is going on, Alex? Talk to o!" There wasn’t much lassy green eyes I was breaking him and I knew it

"Is there so? How could he even think there would be someone else while I was in love with hi but Dane had givenhis eyes My throat tightened when I spoke and I instantly felt sick He let go of er in his eyes quicklyhi I had ever done in my life I had to close my eyes to keep my composure

"Who? Tell Me" I didn’t answer hiive He stood there for a second, just staring down atthis tohis hands over his face before turning around, opening the door and sla it so hard that one of Jade’s pin boards fell from the wall

"I’ uncontrollably again

"What the HELL was THAT?" Jade asked Her voice was controlled, but laced with anger I knew she would be angry I deserved whatever she had to say I was ashamed of what I’d become "What the hell was that?"

"I can’t do it anymore I can’t be with Dane and be what my parents want ether; I realized that this weekend This hurts so freaking bad, but I don’t see any other way I love him, but he deserves better," I replied as tears rolled down h h the pain and tears I closed my eyes and all I could see was his face before he slammed my door

I don’t know if the look in her eyes was pity or confusion or maybe a mixture of both She sat down on the end of"Why did you tell him there’s someone else? You and I both know that there is no one else and you just threw the gasoline on the fire with that one"