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Prologue

Have you ever done so over you like the darkest, heaviest cloud? Blurring your judg you can see, hear or think about?

I have I've done a lot of things I regret, that fillI did yesterday

I left the girl I love alone, naked in her bed Like soirl for sex and then leaves her—that's uy

But I'irl I left alone naked in her bed I just don't deserve her

And I know it

Chapter One

Sometimes you have to stand alone, just to make sure you still can – Unknown

Fable

Twomonths I mean, who does that to a person? Who spends theand shares their hts, their craziest, darkest secrets, has sex with a person—and we’re talking a sex—leaves them a note that says I love you and then bails? I’ll tell you who

Drew I’ to kick him in the balls next time I see him Callahan

I’ve moved on Well, I tell myself that But time doesn’t stop just because my heart does, so I take care of my responsibilities I’ve stretched the three thousand dollars I earned for irlfriend pretty well I still have soht otfor Christmas too

She didn’t buy either of us anything Not one thing Owen made me a shallol he created in his ceraive it to ushed over it The kid wrapped it in bright Christ I was bloay that he took the ti for s in it

At least soives a crap about me, you know?

He didn’t give Mo Which—shalloitch that I am—pleased me to no end

January is supposedly a tioals, resolutions, whatever you want to call them, where a person should be hopeful with all that unchartered territory spread out before them I tried my best to be positive when the New Year came, but I cried That clock struck twelve and I was all bydown irl sobbing into her sweatshirt,the boy she loves

Most of the one and that’s fine But the realization hit le day that coure out what I’ to do with my life and then actually do it I’d leave if I could, but I can’t ditch Owen Without me, I have no idea ould happen to him and I can’t risk it

So I stay I vow toin misery