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Derek

I sat at the dining table

I sat in silence

I couldn’t hear the city through the double-paned glass

I couldn’t hear the wind as it swept between the high-rises

I couldn’t even hear

I wanted to go to sleep and just forget this night, forgetat all, and not care about a da But I couldn’t do that I texted Ryan I’m sorry about what happened I understand if you don’t want o anyway I dreaded showing , and now I dreaded it for a whole new reason Kevin would have a black eye and a swollen face, and the pictures would coht forever

You’re my best friend Of course I want you there

I gave a loud and frustrated sigh, wishing I’d been excused froainst the wall and break it

Kevin woke up a few minutes later, so he’s fine

I didn’t care if he was fine or not I’m not sorry I hit Kevin, but I’m sorry I behaved that way at your rehearsal dinner

We asked both of them not to talk to you, but they did it anyway It’s not your fault

Why were they both obsessed with talking to me? My hostility wasn’t clear?

You okay?

I wasn’t the one just knocked out cold, so I’m fine

You knohat I mean

Was I okay? I felt like I was in a constant state of dread, constantly overwhel like shit My life had fallen apart right in front ofleft I didn’t believe in anything any in the first place But I gave the diplomatic answer Yeah…I’m okay

I drovehway since there wasn’t a lot of traffic to the Ha, but bright

The passenger seat beside me was empty